14-FEB-2025 04:50 AM
This is the first time in my entire life that i am writing a blog. I dont have any intentions to show this to another person. If you are reading this and are not me, then you are breaking the law. You will be hearing from my lawyers.
This is more of a cry for help, since I am planning to move to another continent and leave my home behind. This is all i have wanted to do my entire life but now that it is in motion, it feels very terrifying.
Everyday I hear new horror stories about how difficult life in America is becoming. Lack of jobs, lot of competition and the new government. Everything feels like its stacked against me. On top of that, even though its mid february, I have not heard back from most of the programs i applied to. So far as of the date i am writing this blog post, I only have one acceptance. MSCS in Northeastern Boston. Initially I was very excited about this as it was the highest ranked within my safe and moderate options. But now, it is apparent that they have given admits to practically everyone who applied.
15-FEB-2025 12:30 AM
Quick side track: Spent the entire valentines day alone in my room. No different than the previous valentines days; except i did not even see a women this entire day.
Back to the mediocrity thing. While in India I did manage to be one of the first people in my college to get a job, i cant imagine the same happening in the US. I am not even sure if i will be able to get a job. Web development is one of the most saturated fields. Getting a job when you are good at it is difficult enough but being mediocre at it and getting a job is practically impossible. Getting a job that will sponsor my visa is a whole another challenge.
This is one of the reasons why i am writing this blog. I am not sure if I will be able to keep up with the competition. I am not sure if I will be able to get a job. I am not sure if I will be able to survive in the US. I am not sure if I will be able to make friends. I am not sure if I will be able to find a girlfriend. I am not sure if I will be able to find a place to live. I am not sure if I will be able to find a job that will sponsor my visa. I am not sure if I will be able to find a job that will pay me enough to survive. I am not sure if I will be able to find a job that will pay me enough to pay off my student loans.
Hoping for the best!